Tuesday, March 10, 2009

The *Double Life* Of Emily Sander

AP, 29 November 2007: A missing Kansas college student believed to be the victim of foul play apparently led a double life as an Internet porn star by the name of Zoey Zane. Nude photos of 18-year-old Emily Sander appeared on a Zoey Zane Web site before she vanished, and investigators are looking into whether her modeling had anything to do with her disappearance last Friday.

"She enjoyed it. She is a young teenage girl and she wanted to be in the movies and enjoyed movies. She needed the extra money," Nikki Watson, a close friend of Sander's at Butler Community College, told The Associated Press on Wednesday.

The brown-haired, blue-eyed Sander was last seen wearing low-rider jeans and a "Don't Mess With Texas" T-shirt. She has tattoos and body piercings. Sander was last seen leaving a bar in El Dorado, about 30 miles from Wichita, with a man identified as Israel Mireles, 24, authorities said. Sander and Mireles had met that night at the bar, according to Watson. After Mireles did not show up Saturday at his job at an Italian restaurant, his employer went to the motel room where he was staying. "His motel room was found to appear in great disarray, and a large quantity of blood was found in the room," El Dorado Police Chief Tom Boren said. "Bed clothing was found to be missing."

A nationwide manhunt was under way for Mireles and his 16-year-old girlfriend.

Sander recently signed a contract for the pornographic work on the Web site, and told her parents about it on Thanksgiving, Watson said.

Media says 18-year-old girl next door Emily Sander lived a *double life.* It is suggested her work in internet pornography is foreign to her everyday existence. . .nonsense. Was Emily Sander a member of the Order of the Poor Clares?

The reality of contemporary Amerika: no one leads a *double life.* We live in the ÜberSexual States of Amerika, where all aspects of the questionable culture are grossly sexualized.

There is nothing remotely shocking or surprising about Emily Sander putting it all out on the internet. Millions upon millions of teen and preteen Amerikan girls do the same, to one degree of nudity or the other, on everything from MySpace to Nubiles.net.

And this behavior is not incongruous with the everyday routines of Amerikan girls. Look at the last day in the life of girl next door Emily Sander, who led a supposed *double life:*

Emily, who appears in one of her typical internet poses grinning from ear-to-ear as she tickles herself under her panties, enters a bar even though she is not old enough to legally consume alcohol in the state of Kansas. . .she meets a man named Israel Mireles. . .what do they talk about, this girl next door who is supposedly leading a *double life?*. . .do they discuss the crisis in Darfur? Do they discuss the literary merits of the latest Denis Johnson novel? Or is the talk pornographic? Does Israel comment on Emily’s tattoos and piercings, and does Emily offer a private viewing? They end up in Israel’s motel room. She does here what she does on the internet. She takes off her clothes. This is her talent, this is her career choice. Look at me, I’m on display. No, there is no *double life.* Only the same life, repeated in a dingy motel room. The same seedy Amerikan Way of Life.

So culturally accepted has the skin trade become, Emily’s *close friend* Nikki Watson rightly equates it to the *legitimate* movie industry:

She is a young teenage girl and she wanted to be in the movies and enjoyed movies.

Twenty minute internet porn videos are *the movies.*

In the eyes of Amerikan youth, there is no difference between what Angelina Jolie does in Beowulf and what *Zoey Zane* does on the internet. . .only those who reached puberty before the Inernet Age still hold the illusory distinction, hence the claim for the equally illusory *double life* of Emily Sander.

How did girl next door Emily Sander end up in a pool of blood on Israel Mireles’ bedding? Maybe Emily wanted to restrict her show to the kind of stuff she did on the internet? *Just* some posing, and maybe a little show with Israel’s 16 year-old girlfriend? But maybe Israel wanted something more hardcore. Or maybe he just wanted to kill her for sport. What does it matter, the reason?

Emily ended up lifeless in a pool of her own blood on some dirty sheets in a cheap motel room because she wasn’t living a *double life.* If she had been as modest in real life as she was graphic on the internet, she wouldn’t have been anywhere near that bar or that motel.

This is not meant to blame the victim, or to blame the culture. We are who we are. Whether we parade our flesh on the internet, or merely look at it, or whatever else we do or don’t do, we all fall short of the glory of God. These stories are our contemporary Romans chapters 1 – 3. . .useful in charting our personal and national decline. Take away the pool of blood at the end of the story, and we could have just as well been reading about Lindsay Lohan. . .

It is one of those *telling coincidences* that the Amerikan girl next door, the teenager Emily Sander, told her parents of her pornography career on Thanksgiving, that most Amerikan of holidays. . .from Mayflower to deflower. . .

There is no *double life* in Amerika. There is only one life. . .and it is life on the decline.

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